By: Apostle Clay Cofield
One of the hardest pills to swallow is the pill of betrayal. The reason it is so hard is because it usually is done by someone you have allowed into your space or heart. Recently, I went through a situation to where I was betrayed. My heart immediately sunk within me, and my flesh rose. I wanted so much to retaliate and make the person feel what I felt. While I was vacillating between the reality of what had happened, I began to inquire of God. I knew that what I felt should happen was not corresponding to the Love that He commanded me to operate in. I wanted to get even. I wanted that person to feel the weight and the bruising that I was going through. Then it hit me, it was never supposed to be about me in the first place. Jesus took me to the text of sitting at the table with Thomas and Judas. He showed me how He was going through betrayal, but He still broke bread. He still provided. I no longer saw Thomas and Judas. I saw me. I knew then that forgiveness was not an option, it was a command. I cannot expect God to forgive me if I would not forgive that person. Suddenly the weight shifted off my mind and my shoulders. I felt a sense of freedom and the individual’s presence no longer made my emotions enraged. I started thinking about how short life is and how I did not want to expend my time and energy on something that God has taken care of for me. I know now that betrayal is just a steppingstone for growth. I am wiser now for going thru it, how about you?